Now that Ed (insider nickname for "eating disorder") and I are no longer together, I am dating real people.
As dysfunctional as my relationship was with Ed, at least dating him felt familiar and reliable. Ed) can actually feel safe and comfortable, simply because it is familiar. Sure, he threw the occasional curve ball, but for the most part, I knew what he wanted.
We can talk later about what it means that you’re attracted to a girl who has some body image or eating disorder issues*.
For now, we need to get our heads around this disease, so we can be of maximum possible help to our sweetheart.(*It turns out that a of women have eating disorder and body image issues these days.
As I take things more slowly, I am trying to enjoy the process and realize that I don't have to "do" anything. The truth is that I don't have to do anything except be myself and trust the process.
Yet another problem that I have had with dating is feeling like I always have to do something. If it doesn't work out with someone, I will learn something for the next time around.
I am learning that time is a huge factor in getting to know someone and that the dirty laundry will come out naturally, over time.
We don't have to put our dirty socks on the table before the food has even arrived on the first date!
Dating is about gathering information, not necessarily spilling it.He wanted control of my life and would do anything to get it.Real guys are not as predictable, and I find this quite challenging.Metamorphosing like this was hard work -- I won't do it anymore. These days, I try to get to know a man slowly and avoid immediately putting him on a pedestal, believing that he is Mr.Right and can do no wrong before I even know his last name.